Well I have been slacking a bit with the updating of this blog. I know this for a fact because I have been blowing my computer off like crazy to be outside and live my life. But on to the good news. I got my prescription for T on June 20th. Even after a few mishaps with the prescriptions I got my T on Saturday June 25th. Just for the sake of someone else who may go through this you must know if you are listed as a female on your insurance your T will not be covered. Also it is unlawful to get more than a one month dose at a Walgreens, Rite Aid, CVS etc. So without it being covered a months dose is 12 dollars at this pharmacy in Manhattan on I believe its 18th street and 8th avenue so go check it out.
So I took my first shot at .25 ml. I am to take one every week. My wifey had to give it me because I was to scared to do it myself to be honest. We were in my room both a bit anxious and scared at the same time. Well that is how I interpreted the situation. She poked my thigh and pulled up the syringe to check for blood and then gave me my shot. Its a really low dose to start at to see how my body reacts to it. So far I have already had changes and I can not believe it works that fast on my body. Now it varies based on your genes whether or not changes will occur fast or slow so please do not get mad at me if anyone who reads this who starts T does not get anything for 3 months because we are all different.
The changes I have noticed is my sweat glands just do not stop. I sweated profusely and just yesterday I had to change my shirt as I had sweated it out. My sex drive has kicked into overdrive in some kind of way. I have a high sex drive already but now when I am horny and I look at my gf I just want to go in on her ass. I look at her and feel like I am hulking up when we are getting real intimate. I felt slight pain in my lower region but I was told that most likely it is due to the fact my dick is growing. I honestly can’t wait to see what it will look like after a few months on this T. I feel so much better about myself even after one shot because I know I am pretty much on my way to freedom and peace with my mind, body, and soul. I am going to work on getting real big for next summer. This winter I plan on investing in some dumbbells and such so I can work on my chest and biceps. During the summer I am going to drop the extra fat so i can build muscle in the winter. I want to be in tip top shape for when I get surgery. Well if anything else changes I will be sure to come back on here and jot them down. Well until then…
On Monday I got my script. Now it seems like most other people would’ve done back flips but me…I just walked out the MLK Center with my head held up high and confident. The past few months I have already been transitioning to a man with the decisions I have made. I have been praying and accepting the universal creator into my life. Things seemed to have gotten much brighter in my life as I accept the light into everything I do. Today I hope to pick up my testosterone from Walgreens. I do have a problem when it comes to finding the needles but I am going to take a nice brisk walk today and go to more then one pharmacy to find what I’m looking for. Well I am not going to write a long post today. Going to keep it short and sweet. Peace and Love
I am glad that I finally have more to update in regards to my transition process. It seemed like life was moving forward since May ended and I have had nada to contribute to this topic but now I do so here goes.
I had a 9 am appointment at the MLK center last Friday. I will go off on a rant by saying that I waited almost an hour and a half before I was seen. What was really messed up is that I left the house that morning and my phone was half dead as I forgot to charge it the night before so I was already upset at that fact. So more time went by and I started to think of Callen Lorde. I even thought to up and leave and make an appointment to go to Callen Lorde but I sat and waited till I was finally seen. What I can say that was very positive is that the social worker that I did see was indeed very friendly and open minded. Now hopefully all social workers would be people who are open minded but this is reality we are talking about lol. Anyway he asked me about when I thought I was a boy, how do I have sex etc. Now I am a very open person and I am not at all embarrassed to talk about my life so that wasn’t to hard. At the end of the interview he approved me to start T whenever I can get my next appointment. He almost thought I was already on T with my appearance as he says I look and give off the feel of a male already. Most of my friends already see me as a one of the guys so this will not be anything surprising to any of the ones who do not know already. Now I know I should be doing cartwheels and back flips but I have never been the type and I have celebrated in silence with my self. I am so happy and very anxious to get started with my muscle building and cardio. I want to be quite muscular and strong so If any one tries to step to me I can hit em with a one hitter quitter (hahaha). I have quite a few battles to fight when I transition. They are not all physical some are mental in nature. There are two particular people who I would punch in the face after a year on T. I say that so I can get to their level of strength before I try them. But off that I am already seen as a man in life because I can see that based on how I am treated. I do not get the special treatment that men give to pretty ladies when they see them. I get the bull shit customer service when I shop or go get takeout. People do not move when I am walking towards them and I have almost knocked quite a few men off of their feet because they want to walk right into me. I tend to push you over if I feel like you are being a prick and you act like you cannot move a few feet over so we can share the sidewalk. I am offered handshakes more then hugs when it comes to greeting men so that makes me one of them.
At the end of this week I am going to start to detox my body before I start T. This is my wifey’s advice and it couldn’t have been better.When I start hopefully I can have less reaction to the drug if my body is so fresh and so clean clean. I wonder how that feels to be cleansed of all the garbage we eat everyday. Anyway I hope to set my appointment after I detox for a few and then I can watch the fat drip off my body and build more muscle. I will not know what to do with my self once I am all sexified (thats my word that I use when I describe myself after I get some results from T). I cannot wait to be able to take my shirt off in public and just be butt ass naked. Well not literally but I am pretty sure people will understand what I mean. Hopefully the next time I post I will have my script!!